Japanese Governemt

Started by title this post as Japanese, the on the second thought, it is not all Japanese citizen's fault that the conflict between China and Japan accelerated for the past years.

Japan's intention of holding a permanent seat in the UN security council triggered the nation wide protest, leading to damages to Japanese properties and boycotte to Japanese products. Japan sent its Foreign Minister Nobutaka Machimura to Beijing demanding compensation and apology. This demand was flatly refused by the Chinese counterpart Li Zhaoxing. I wasn't surprised that the Japanese goverment took the guts to have this idea of Compensation, since it is always barbarian and can't be reasoned with common sense.

I completely agree with Li Zhaoxing's remark that the demonstrations were the result of Japan's view of its wartime atrocities and its stand on Taiwan and human rights. For those who do not agree with me, just take a look at the European nations' sentiment for German. It's been more than half a century since the German surrendered, and German government showed sincere remorse in various occassions, paid their share of compensation, and is very alert of the new neo-nazi development. And they are still not forgiven, or well liked. I know a guy from Netherland on my defense.

Now take a look at Japan. In this morning's CBC radios show, the host invited two experts on Sino-Japan relationship, one of them is from Japan judging by his name. When asked about the Nanjing Massacre, he said the Japanese textbook didn't mention the amount of Chinese civilians murdered because the number is still in dispute. Hello, just give a approximate number then, lets be conservative and just say Hundreds of millions? What make me so mad I wanted to swear was that he told the host that the massacre is different from German's genocide of Jews and is the same as what the US troops is doing in Iraq: eliminate whoever post a threat to the army. But I would suggest this so called expert to do some research on UN's effort in preventing this Incident as was mentioned in the Japanese textbook. Even the UN peace zone couldn't provide safety to the defenseless civilians. Luckily the other professor took a more objective view that eventually calmed my anger.

I do not mean that I agree with the protestors' violence, but the surpressed emotion has to be released. I wish the Chinese could take a more mature approach as the Korean does, such as working on being independant on Japanese products, promoting patriotism instead of nationalism.

Japan has never stopped provoking China and Korean on territorial and WWII issues. It is unimaginable if they really become a permanent menber in the security council, since they never recognize the sickly aggressive side of their nation. Considering Japan's current foreign policies, one can't associate this nation with the word Peace.

He is such a

Liar. Shen Mo was Feiber's roommate before he was married. Shen told Ning that Feiber always bring different girls home at night, even when he was engaged. Then why would he got married and claims that he loves his wife. What a hypocrit, the worse I've even seen! All the respect for him bursted like a bubble. I asked him was it the first time that he cheated on his wife and he said yes, and showed me his shaky hand. Of course I knew it was bogus but my vanity blinded me into believing. What was I thinking. I wasn't even physically attracted to him, never ever, although I always thought he was a smart and nice person. How vain I am, lured into this by his compliments like a drug addict. Am I bored with my own marriage or what!

Alex is such a sweet husband, why can't I love him more???

Marriage

Went to see Sahara with Shambavi this afternoon and shopped, which I was not supposed to since Alex and I are moving to a new apartment and we need money to cover the moving expenses and the rent. But what do you expect a girl to do in the mall?

In a tiny little city like this one I am living in, you can't find a pair of shoes that you like. I have the exact right pairs shoes I want in my mind, but it seems I can never find them.

Put on so much fat during the summer, and everyone's perfect body in the movie is the constant reminder of my ever-expanding butt size. But very proud of myself tonight for not eating after supper.

Talked about age with Shambavi on the way home. I said many people of my age already had a career and might be promoted many times already and I would only be a newly graduate in the summer. Feiber, 22 years old, who is commonly known as the smartest student in the faculty, has already been married for almost 3 years and is graduating at the end of the year. Shambavi replied that his life is over since there is not much to expect anymore. I felt better. :)

Then we start to talk about our parents. I don't think my parents ever had sex after I was conceived, since they don't seem to love each other much. She starts to laugh and tells me that in India nobody talks about sex, even married couple. People gives an impression that no one is having sex and all the mothers are Virgin Mary, while India has the largest population. I couldn't stop laughing. She is so funny.

Where is my marriage going? Alex knows that he loves me much more than I does him. The fact is, I don't even know if I love him or not. But he is so devoted, and is not missing any of the charactors a wife would expect a husband to have. I want to love him more but why can't I?! So bored.

Feiber said he loves his wife. I saw her in the party and found her very nice. Then why does he want to cheat on her? Is it common in France to have affaires, as I was told?

Tammie

Tammie is 19, coming from a very small town. Her mom is a caregiver and her stepfather is unemployeed. Her sister was molested by their biological father and is a smoker and drinker even though she is only 16. The whole family is obese, besides the stepfather. She hates going home. She is working at a private daycare center with 12 kids. And she sits on the couch watching TV during the spare time.

She picked Iman up in Sweatwaters on New Year's Eve 2005 and they started dating since then. She thought she gained some respect from him because she refused to have sex with him for the first two weeks. She told me that he said he hadn't had sex for over four years and I told her to give him a trophy. He is her first. Gradually we start to hear her telling us Iman's comments, or rather criticism about her, including her cooking skills, her education prospect, her weight, her drinking... One morning she was about to cook two eggs for breakfast even though he suggested one. Then he said:"Then don't complain that you are fat." She later told me that she was holding back tears. It only gets worse as time goes. Now she found out that he portraied her to his friends as a alcoholic with no future. He was also surprised that he is her first because he thought all the Canadian girls are sluts. Ironically he does not behave like a really religious Iranian who would regard premarital sex as a sin. Basically he thinks he is too good for her. She tried to tell him that he has been hurting her feelings but he refuses to listen. And he got upset at her because she told her mother that they met in the club instead of the library.

I told her to dump the frigging snob before he does more damage to her. I said:"I don't know what you are thinking, but if I were you I would have dumped him weeks ago." Is it so easy to be attached to anyone when you are lonely and emotionally vunerable? Even to an asshole?

Got a Job!

Graduating after June, the best time of the year here in a small town east of Canada, after 4 years of ups and downs, mostly caused by the shortage of cash.

I am the lucky ones who really found a job before graduation. Those elites in my SIF class are still looking and I am already settled. The Personal Financial Services postion is always what I wanted, which will lead me to be a financial planner eventually. And RBC seems to be very employee friendly, as what I heard from Jeanne, my colleague in H&R Block who worked for RBC for 25 years. But I am not a people person. Friends do not come easy for me, and I always regret what I said or did a minuite after the damage was done.

Ning is worried about her medical exam result. She has to pass it to be employed by McCain. Don't know why are they so fussy about this. She will be working for the accounting department and may never get a chance to touch those food.

Speaking of McCain, it wants to open the Chinese market, starting by selling fries. Not very optimistic about this idea. And frozen vegitables are far from Chinese likings. Who would
buy stale frozen vegitables when he/she can get fresh ones everyday in the markets? And Ning was told she would get paid 3000 yuan if she works in the factory in Harbin in the north. I'd rather work in the Chinese restaurant in the states undertable, making USD2000(start). Cost more than CAD10000 a year to study here. Hello, not worth it.

Can't wait to start working in the bank. Wish Alex could get a job too. Or wish he would get sick of me one day and give me a divorce.