Can't Wait!

Oh My! Finally the trip to Chines really start to materialize. Three weeks in November is earned by not taking anydays off for the past year, since I started working here (except for the holidays of course, don't work that hard). Especially after the call to Anxian. Two and a half month seems to be so long now.

No strangely, I don't really miss my parents as much. Most of the dreams I made about the visit were about hanging out with friends, shopping, and enjoy the food. Almost cried the other day when thinking about parting with grandparents again. Would this be the last time I will ever see them?? Everytime I leave they would stand on the balcony until I get out of sight. I can't even bear the thought of it. Life is cruel and I made the choice to leave.

How am I going to live with my parents again? What would I say to them? They will complain again that I don't call them often, and once face to face, would I still have the courage to say that: it is because that's how I was brought up! Hard to picture them in my life anymore.

And of course, Yang. How would he feel when we meet after 6 years? I want to look good if not better so that he won't be disappointed as what usually happens, and wonders what he saw in me. What should I wear?

They all tell me to make some Chinese dresses, sure I will, and many other things on the shopping list.

Can't wait to finally say: China here I come!