Sales Sales and Sales

Had a dream one night. Jason and Josh was chatting with each other about how great their sales are: how much they exceed their loans, and how much investment they have. I was there thinking about my pathetic sales, feeling so left out. What am I doing wrong? I know I can be lazy, but sometimes it seems to be no where to find more sales. What do I miss? Had to pull myself together! It is stressing me out!

Such a tiny little town that you bump into someone you know wherever you go.

Don't think Josh likes me. Is it because my poor sales and attitude makes me weak in his eyes? I find there is always insincerity behind his kindness sometimes.

If I quit where else could I go? Xu Xun and Mu Jun may be running some business soon, but would it be worth it for me to quit my job and join them? They have money to risk but my job is all I have now. Don't even have the Emergency Fund I tried to talk the clients into set up.

Chris is hot. And we are having a double date tomorrow night at Suwana the Tai food restaurant with his girl friend who is also from Beijing and Alex my husband. Secretely wish he could be like Feiber who looks great from outside leading people to believe they are great inside as well but turns out to be an ass. I wouldn't mind kissing him. Sl*t!

The sl*t is buying a house with her husband, who will spend lots of money to set up his studio which shatters the sl*t's dream of paying off the debts with this year's tax refund. There will be no more next year since all the student credits has been used.